My Beautiful Struggle

Sunday, 28 June 2009

  • what a weekend... totally flew by.

    sat
    morning: figuring out what's wrong with the beater
    noon: head out to wedding ceremony
    afternoon: softball game
    evening: wedding reception
    way past midnight: sleep

    sunday
    morning: church
    noon-ish: change wheels, head to track
    afternoon: dunnsville
    evening: food and xanga
    rest of the night: gonna shower and make ring tones. (bb pearl sucks btw)

    that was my plan, and God helped me make it happen. I honestly did not expect to have done all that, but some how the timing worked out great, and no spinning out on the track.


Saturday, 20 June 2009

  • too much information warning

    stop now.




















    my findings:
    - hispanics sound the same as CBC's having sex
    - CBCs and old chinese people sound pretty much the same when having sex
    - by transitive properties, hispanics sound like old chinese people having sex

    my hypothesis.
    most people sound the same (to me) when they're having sex (and i happen to hear it through a wall/door).

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

Tuesday, 09 June 2009

  • doing vs listening

    as i was making my cup of morning coffee i was thinking about how all/most of my saturdays are basically written off cuz of softball, and then in sept it'll be squads again. i was thinking how it is kind of inconvenient because there are a lot of track related events in the summer i'd like to go to... like DMCC (http://www.dmccdrift.com/)  .

    then it dawned on me, like a voice saying in my head "you don't have to do more ish... I just wanted you to spend more time with me"

     it's so easy to do stuff with good intentions and think it'll bring you closer to God when it doesn't. It's just going through the motion. you don't always have to be doing something to be doing something. sitting down doing devos and being still before God IS doing something.

    psalm 46:10
    "Be still, and know that I am God;
           I will be exalted among the nations,
           I will be exalted in the earth."

    psalm 37:7
    Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
           do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
           when they carry out their wicked schemes.


    man i gotta get my soul right.. i gotta get these devils out my life

Monday, 25 May 2009

  • air yeezy

    i really want to get a pair of these but people are hording them and sellin them on EBAY n the likes for 1000 a pair. That's in USD.




    If i'm going to pay a g for sneakers i might as well get those real croc leather af1's... frig.

    i think retail's only 210

Wednesday, 20 May 2009


  • i was gonna pick up UFC undisputed game from superstore because i thought i was balling it up with mad PC points...  i even told the sales who got the game for me that i'm buying it even though it's $$$ because i got mad points. then upon check out he's like it won't let me use any pc points, u don't have enough.
    i couldn't believe it

    i had almost 50 bucks in pc points ... i had just used 20 on groceries so there should be enough.
    turns out i had spent another 20k points a month ago....

    blaaast

    that UFC game IS pretty fun though. i played the demo for 30 minutes and i'm hooked

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

  • check yourself before you wreck yourself.

    2 Chronicles 26

     16 But after Uzziah became powerful, his pride led to his downfall. He was unfaithful to the LORD his God, and entered the temple of the LORD to burn incense on the altar of incense. 17 Azariah the priest with eighty other courageous priests of the LORD followed him in. 18 They confronted him and said, "It is not right for you, Uzziah, to burn incense to the LORD. That is for the priests, the descendants of Aaron, who have been consecrated to burn incense. Leave the sanctuary, for you have been unfaithful; and you will not be honored by the LORD God."

     19 Uzziah, who had a censer in his hand ready to burn incense, became angry. While he was raging at the priests in their presence before the incense altar in the LORD's temple, leprosy [c] broke out on his forehead. 20 When Azariah the chief priest and all the other priests looked at him, they saw that he had leprosy on his forehead, so they hurried him out. Indeed, he himself was eager to leave, because the LORD had afflicted him.

     21 King Uzziah had leprosy until the day he died. He lived in a separate house [d] —leprous, and excluded from the temple of the LORD. Jotham his son had charge of the palace and governed the people of the land.

     22 The other events of Uzziah's reign, from beginning to end, are recorded by the prophet Isaiah son of Amoz. 23 Uzziah rested with his fathers and was buried near them in a field for burial that belonged to the kings, for people said, "He had leprosy." And Jotham his son succeeded him as king.

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    it's easy to get cocky away when things are going our way ... this is a good reminder for us to not to become full of ourselves and remember it is God who actually got us to where we are.


Monday, 11 May 2009

  • i have a bad feeling about this captaining thing... one side of me is shaking my fist and saying damn you God.. you got me.
    Another side of me knows He's forcing me to mature emotionally because i've been procrastinating/refusing.

    I'll see how this plays out but i have a feeling i know what He's up to.... and it's gonna put me wwaaaay out of my comfort zone.

    i will wait

     "Be still, and know that I am God;
           I will be exalted among the nations,
           I will be exalted in the earth."

Thursday, 30 April 2009

  • i'm pretty sure the lady who is about to move out has been doing other people's laundry at our place this whole week. she's been doing laundry EVERY night. i can't even get my clothes in... i wouldn't be surprised if she runs some sort of laundromat.

    friggin cheap ass roommates.


Tuesday, 28 April 2009