my yogurt tub covers keep opening in my bag. as you can imagine, a tub of yogurt opening sideways in a bag creates a ridiculous mess. on top of that, it makes everything in the bag smell like strawberry.

i really should get a container with a better seal to hold my yogurt. the stock tubs just don't hold up very wheel when banged around in a gym bag.

i had a health check today (blood work, urine and vitals) for my life insurance. the person who performed the tests commented i must be a really relaxed person, because my heart rate and blood pressure is really good.

but underneath it all, i don't feel relaxed. i feel annoyed, tense, bitter and angry. all that mixed into one ball of emotions which i suppose could be called angst. i'm taking supplements to sleep better (ZMA rocks btw. totally works).

i feel stupid for having all that harbored in me. as much as i know i should let go, i still keep hanging onto it. it's almost like i'm hanging on because i believe that there's nothing else if i let it go. or maybe i've just become so accustomed to feeling this way.

how stupid could i be, a simpleton could see that you're no good for me

I had to drop off some stuff for my sister, so i went by her apartment on the way home. It was around 930pm and i was waiting inside my car by the back entrance of her place which was dimly lit, so it was pretty dark. just as i pulled up, i noticed a man kind of looking at me/my car, and he started walking towards me. I drove the car forwards past him a bit and locked my doors. Then i see in the mirror that he's walking back towards my car and tried to open the door. he knocks on the window and i opened a slit to talk to him.

"did i chat with you on bareback.com?"
"no"

* close window *

it looked like he was hooking up for a casual encounter he had set up online. the meeting place was super sketchy because it's behind some building. I'm still not sure if he just randomly tried to get in or if in fact was looking for someone to meet him there.

some info i had to look up , what is bareback?
originally it just means unprotected sex, but i think it is usually used in a a homosexual context. 
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bareback_(sex)

"The resurgence of barebacking in first-world gay communities during the 1990s has been a frequent topic for gay columnists and editorialists in The Advocate, Genre magazine, and Out magazine.^{[2][citation needed]} An article in the online resource The Body lists no fewer than 22 reasons as to why barebacking has become increasingly acceptable in the gay community."

Bareback gay pornography used to be available only in older, so-called "pre-condom" films from the 1970s and early 1980s. But since the 1990s, an increasing number of studios have been devoted to the production of new films featuring men engaging in unsafe sex.


random Glatiator quote that popped into my head:
Proximo: Those giraffes you sold me, they won't mate. They just walk around, eating, and not mating. You sold me... queer giraffes. I want my money back.